First of all, the amount of laziness I’m feeling is ridiculous. I have people I need to try to get in touch. I need to write. I need to finish fixing my hair.
Second of all, the message I just got is really interesting. I need to pray about it. Allowing myself to receive has been on my heart lately. I read someone’s story about struggling with allowing people to help her. I identified with her a lot. All of the opportunities that have been made available to me because other people’s generosity, I feel like I don’t deserve. But if the script was flipped, I wouldn’t want anyone to feel like that. I don’t know. I like to be independent. I like to take care of myself - that’s another reason why this not working thing is so hard. I don’t like to ask my parents for money. I went to college so I feel like I should be able to support myself. So if you’re following me and you sent that very generous message, I’ll get back to you soon.